I’m bored…bored with myself. I feel restless for a positive change. I don’t know what to do with myself. Being on Disability is…well, it isn’t easy. I feel like I should should should be doing more by now. My soul needs more stimulation. Being on a fixed income family of three has its’…limitations. I’m bored with that too. Bored bored bored. C’mon God, c’mon universe, something’s gotta give.
Looking back a year ago today I had just completed a 28 day inpatient program for Mood & Anxiety at CAMH, the Centre for Addictions and Mental Health. I was a pure mess going in…it saved my life. I’m grateful I’m no longer in that place. Grateful for all the blessings in my life.
I have a year and a half left of Disability income…what to do with this time I want to make the most of it. Not looking for advice really, just a direction from the universe.
I love photography but can I really turn this passion into a career? I need so much more education and more tools…
and a vacation. I’m watching friends taking off for warmer climes and feel jealous. Oh to be able to afford a vacation! Waaah waah waah poor me. Ugh! I drive myself.
I need your direction today God. Tell me, what is it you would have me do?
Patience is a virtue that eludes me presently.
It’s going up to 6 degrees today, thank you for this pleasure. I can smell Spring.