Tis the dawning of a new day… To say I’m thrilled to be working again is an understatement. It’s been 5 years since I was fired from 3 consecutive jobs in Victoria, BC which led me down a path of self-discovery and a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder. A few years went by where I wasn’t […]
7:22 am. It is an absolutely gorgeous day so far. Our balcony faces East, I’m bathed in sunshine. It’s going up to 21 degrees. Sigh. Life is wonderful.
Two weeks ago today my dear friend Janet died in palliative care in St. John’s, NL. 51 years old, bone cancer. Surrounded by close friends and family. She died as she lived, gracefully. She was an Actor by trade, a phenomenal one at that. We worked closely together a number of seasons at a summer theatre festival in Newfoundland many moons ago. The picture below was taken last summer when she visited Toronto. We had 3 glorious hours together which I shall cherish for a lifetime.
It’s too soon to clearly express…I’m still processing it. Heartbroken is a word I’d use. And grateful. Through action she taught us that no matter what life throws your way it can be met head on, eyes and heart wide open, with great humour, love and dignity. She didn’t allow cancer to define her. Instead she showed it her boot and said, Well if you’re here you’re coming with me. Try to keep up will ya? Lol. She had the BEST laugh. Chesty, charming and catching. She was unique which means there was only one ❤
It turns out another friend, who lives in Halifax, my hometown, has the same cancer. It was only a few days after Janet’s passing that I learned we’re talking months now. Well fuck. I couldn’t get home to see Janet. I was in school see and she was no longer able to handle visitors. But I’d had it. I was heartbroken and homesick (hadn’t been home in 5 years). I sure as HELL was going home to see Lynn. So, I put it out on Facebook asking for airmiles or aeroplan points to get me and my daughter Lily home, it’s important. I’m not working yet see…poor student, couldn’t afford to do it on our own. Lo and behold an angel came through for us. I found out Thursday morning and by that afternoon our eager arses were sitting on the tarmac in Halifax.
Still processing our trip home too. It was an unforgettable whirlwind of love, salt air and meaning. Lily, who’s 8 now, got to spend quality time with her Auntie Danielle, my friend for 30 years, and her Nanny Jean & Auntie Joan on my husband’s side.
We were treated like gold, as is the East coast way.
It was also my 45th birthday on the Saturday…
Luckily Lynn had enough energy to see me Sunday afternoon. We had a whole 2 hours together!! I got to massage her feet and legs…it was…beautiful. Magical. Spiritual. Our time, it was love. She said she felt Janet was with us ❤. I feel indescribably lucky. Felt so good to give something of myself to one who has given so much of themselves to others. I love you Lynn. More adventures to be had 😄
Here it is, Saturday again.
It’s been two weeks since Janet passed away. Still hard to believe. But I strive to live, love and be better. Every day.
Our time here is brief my friends. Make it count ❤
It’s 8:50 am…and I am bathed in sunshine.
Peace, love & light,
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Peace, love & light,
February 14, 2016
Mr. Doug Morehead
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Ms. Buchman and I argued about a renewal increase that she told me was mandated by your company. Even though my long term disability benefits were recently terminated (because I couldn’t afford to see a doctor), and my Social Security Disability benefits did not increase this year, I had no choice but to accept Ms. Buchman’s renewal terms (because of the cost to move). Along with my acceptance of the renewal terms, I reported an old maintenance issue (still outstanding as of this date) and my intention to send a more complete list…
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I have been ridiculously inattentive. Forgive me. It has been over two months since my last post! I sound like I’m beginning a confession, lol.
How have you been? Please, fill me in, I want to know.
Summer FLEW by didn’t it? I’m hard pressed to remember it all. Best part of it for me was spending two weeks with my daughter at my Mother’s place up north in the land of Muskoka lakes. Lake swimming and ice cream eating. Every. Day. We are so lucky to have had this special time with my Mum. And I needed a break from the big city. Toronto does not present the depth of nature Muskoka offers so willingly and freely…and my soul needs the soothing surround of pure, peaceful nature.
On August 24th I began my courses in Massage Therapy at Sutherland-Chan here in Toronto. We have a healthy class of 37 wonderful, unique individuals all working together towards the same goal (they teach me so much!). We really are lucky to have each other.
It has been an intense period of transition, adjusting to a new full-time study schedule. And it’s truly full on. Both Anatomy and Physiology are dense courses…I can hardly believe I’m learning as much as I am in such a short time…all the bones and their structures from the pelvis to the feet and their muscles & ligaments (excluding the lower leg). I mean, it’s only been 4 weeks! It feels so much longer…in a good way, lol.
The best part of course are the practical classes where we learn massage techniques. Every week, three times a week, I get a massage. How brilliant is that?! We just learned Head/Neck/Shoulders… oh…my…gad it feels amazing!!
I have to say though, I love giving more than receiving. It’s a total workout and thus completely energizing. I love it. I massage with love :).
Regarding my mental health, school is so beneficial. I feel motivated and inspired every day. I have no time to ruminate. Bipolar who? Ha-cha-cha!
So, that’s me. Where I’m at right now.
I love that my 6 year old daughter and I are both going to school at the same time…learning, steady as she goes, new languages both (she French, me Anatomy speak). My husband makes our lunches for us…how sweet is that? How lucky are we :).
I leave you now, time to play a game with the little one.
Thank you for reading and being here.
Peace, love & light,
I have been the worst blog buddy! I’m so sorry. Classes and work and life have taken my full attention. How are you? What’s new in your life?
A week ago my daughter Lily and I went to Toronto’s Sugar Beach, a really cool man-made invention. Wind was a bit chilly but the sun was a shining brightly, first beach day of the summer! Lily and her little buddy Olivia hadda grand time, as did my friend Johanna and I. All it needed was a beer and bbq to top it off 😀
My pre-admission Anatomy course finishes a week from Saturday. Gad the time has flown! I’m doing really well, proud of myself…and I’m all a flutter for the full time Massage Therapy course to kick in come the end of August. Imagine…two years from now I’ll be writing my Ontario RMT exam – crazy!
Feeling really odd today…like I’m waiting for something, like I’m on the edge of something amazing happening. Ever have those days? Like…I’m about to come into A LOT of money or something. Hmmmm. Just…strange.
My mental health/mood took a dip there for a couple of weeks, much to my disappointment. Thankfully it’s picked up again. My shrink and I have finally taken me off the anti-depressant that caused me to gain 40lbs – thank god – and have started me on a weight neutral one. Hooray!! AND, it has no sexual side effects. HALLELUJAH.
Another week and Lily will finish Senior Kindergarten and be free for the summer. How is it I have a child going into grade one? I swear just yesterday I was breastfeeding her.
I hope your week is off to a wonderful start.
Til next time…
Peace, love & light,
Yesterday was the time I turned 43 ☺. Twas a relaxing time, a simple one, shared with my love on the shore of Lake Ontario on a bench in the spot nearby where we had our first date 7 years ago. Perfect weather, not too hot not too cold, juuuuuuust right. I spent the day exactly as I wanted to, with my family. Close in not too wide, nuthin’ too fancy. Chocolate cake, my favorite to top it off. I still don’t feel “in my forties” whatever that’s supposed to feel like. Young is how I feel except when my body tells me otherwise, lol.
What a difference a year makes. A year ago I was still struggling with the depression aspect of Bipolar2 Disorder…couldn’t fathom having the energy or mind to work, getting out of bed was a success. Dressing, brushing my teeth, being present. Now here I am taking a pre-requisite course in Physiology and Anatomy for the Massage Therapy program at Sutherland-Chan AND working a part-time job…AND enjoying my life.
Grateful…blessed…humbled are words that come to mind.
Special is another word I feel.
Twas a lovely day.
Mid-Term Saturday. I’ll let you know how it goes. I feel satisfied with my studies and can’t wait to get at it!
Thank you for visiting. I know my posts have been few and far between of late as well as my visits to your pages. Maybe now that my nerves have settled in regards to my class I’ll feel more inspired to be creative and engaged here.
Sending you peace, love & light,
I hope life is treating you all very well! A belated Happy Mother’s Day to all you Moms out there ☺. Motherhood: best job there is.
Speaking of jobs, I have a new one! I’m serving part-time at a vegetarian restaurant downtown called Sadie’s Diner and Juice Bar. I love it! Feels so good to be working again after two years…gets me outta my neighborhood, I get some social time and some extra cash to boot ☺. I’m deeply grateful and feel so blessed to be where I’m at presently. A year ago I was incapable of even the simplest of daily tasks…look at me now. I’m taking a pre-admin Physiology course and working part-time. Biploar Disorder be damned! Lol
Tomorrow night we have our first quiz ☺. I feel really good about the material I’m learning.
Gotta take my girl to school and work another shift. Have yourselves a beautiful day!
Peace, love & light,