Good morning…

7:22 am. It is an absolutely gorgeous day so far. Our balcony faces East, I’m bathed in sunshine. It’s going up to 21 degrees. Sigh. Life is wonderful.

Janet Edmonds

Two weeks ago today my dear friend Janet died in palliative care in St. John’s, NL. 51 years old, bone cancer. Surrounded by close friends and family. She died as she lived, gracefully. She was an Actor by trade, a phenomenal one at that. We worked closely together a number of seasons at a summer theatre festival in Newfoundland many moons ago. The picture below was taken last summer when she visited Toronto. We had 3 glorious hours together which I shall cherish for a lifetime.

It’s too soon to clearly express…I’m still processing it. Heartbroken is a word I’d use. And grateful. Through action she taught us that no matter what life throws your way it can be met head on, eyes and heart wide open, with great humour, love and dignity. She didn’t allow cancer to define her. Instead she showed it her boot and said, Well if you’re here you’re coming with me. Try to keep up will ya? Lol. She had the BEST laugh. Chesty, charming and catching. She was unique which means there was only one ❤

It turns out another friend, who lives in Halifax, my hometown, has the same cancer. It was only a few days after Janet’s passing that I learned we’re talking months now. Well fuck. I couldn’t get home to see Janet. I was in school see and she was no longer able to handle visitors. But I’d had it. I was heartbroken and homesick (hadn’t been home in 5 years). I sure as HELL was going home to see Lynn. So, I put it out on Facebook asking for airmiles or aeroplan points to get me and my daughter Lily home, it’s important. I’m not working yet see…poor student, couldn’t afford to do it on our own. Lo and behold an angel came through for us. I found out Thursday morning and by that afternoon our eager arses were sitting on the tarmac in Halifax.  

Still processing our trip home too. It was an unforgettable whirlwind of love, salt air and meaning. Lily, who’s 8 now, got to spend quality time with her Auntie Danielle, my friend for 30 years, and her Nanny Jean & Auntie Joan on my husband’s side. 

Lily & Danielle

We were treated like gold, as is the East coast way.

Anni & I…I am a lucky woman ❤

It was also my 45th birthday on the Saturday…

Myself, Genevieve & Danielle…friends for 30 years…birthday brunch ❤

Old friends 😃

Myself & Rebecca, choir camp buddies since our teens…seeing ONCE the musical at Neptune Theatre, a gift for my birthday ❤.

Friends of mine who were in the cast of ONCE…Kirsten, Amanda, Cam, Me, Jon-Alex and Margot ❤

Myself and Margot Sampson…a fellow performer ❤

Doug & Danielle ❤…our loving hosts for the weekend

Myself & Jeremy Webb…Actor and Artistic Director of Eastern Front Theatre ❤

Kendra & I…friends for 40 years – HOLY poop!! ❤

Myself & Lesli Chandler…we performed together in the musical Cabaret at Neptune Theatre in the late-90’s ❤

Luckily Lynn had enough energy to see me Sunday afternoon. We had a whole 2 hours together!! I got to massage her feet and legs…it was…beautiful. Magical. Spiritual. Our time, it was love. She said she felt Janet was with us ❤. I feel indescribably lucky. Felt so good to give something of myself to one who has given so much of themselves to others. I love you Lynn. More adventures to be had 😄

Sigh☀️

At the airport Sunday evening waiting to depart…sad faces.

Here it is, Saturday again.

It’s been two weeks since Janet passed away. Still hard to believe. But I strive to live, love and be better. Every day.

Our time here is brief my friends. Make it count ❤

It’s 8:50 am…and I am bathed in sunshine.

Wed. May 31, 2017…after a 12 hour day at school. This is the face of a soon-to-be graduate. 2 more months of classes!!

Peace, love & light,

Julia

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Dear Mr. Corporate America

This is complete bs. Help out our fellow blogger Johanna at painkills2/All Things Chronic by reblogging and if you are able to, donate to the gofundme account set up by another fellow blogger and friend.
Peace, love & light,
Jules

All Things Chronic

February 14, 2016

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Dear Mr. Morehead:

I am seeking your assistance regarding a Notice to Vacate, which I received a week ago from your Community Manager, Kara Buchman.

Ms. Buchman and I argued about a renewal increase that she told me was mandated by your company. Even though my long term disability benefits were recently terminated (because I couldn’t afford to see a doctor), and my Social Security Disability benefits did not increase this year, I had no choice but to accept Ms. Buchman’s renewal terms (because of the cost to move). Along with my acceptance of the renewal terms, I reported an old maintenance issue (still outstanding as of this date) and my intention to send a more complete list…

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Election 2015, the Blue Jays an’ other shtuff

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Monday October 12th, 2015

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GO JAYS GO! The Toronto Transit Commission representin'! My bus ride to the polls. #cometogether Monday October 12th, 2015

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Sunday October 11th, 2015

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Lady bug lady bug, fly away home...

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Koko, a sweet distraction from my studies... October 2015

Two major events are occurring in Canada presently – the Federal Election which will elect a NEW Prime Minister come October 19th (all fingers crossed) and the Blue Jays present bid to become ALDS Champs which will move them one step closer to playing in the World Series. I am a true blue baseball fan especially when playoff time arrives and I am definitely a voter.

This is a very exciting time for us Canadians. It’s been 22 years since the Blue Jays won the World Series which I remember watching with heart on sleeve pint of beer in hand…and it’s been ten years of Stephen Harper’s “dictatorship” that has seen our country’s good name drown here at home and upon the world stage. I barely recognize this country anymore. It is time for change and
I guess you could say this is one helluva’n October we’re not likely to forget.

Standing in line yesterday at the advance polls awaiting patiently my time to exercise my right to choose, I became a little verklempt. I am an emotional creature, yes. But when I consider there are people in this world dying for the right to practice democracy, this knowledge drives the point home that I am truly privileged and lucky to be have been born in a free country. I have a burning, passionate desire for change on the political front. It’s time Harper became a name of the past. #heavesteve is a popular hashtag I use faithfully. I believe, I KNOW I am not the only one who feels this way. In fact the voter numbers from the advance polls shows an increase of 34% over Election2011 and a 90% increase over Election2008. I can’t help but feel this is due to a massive burning desire felt all across this beautiful country of ours to #heavesteve!! I have never felt as invested in an election as I do now. Hence the emotional me standing in line waiting to vote yesterday.

And if that weren’t enough, I also watched game 4 of the ALDS playoffs while eating my Thanksgiving dinner beside my handsome hubby whom I deeply adore. AND. THEY. WON! 8-4 over the Texas Rangers #thisishowwedoit. They were down 2 games going into game 3 in Texas Sunday to play do or die. They came back big time winning the next two games to secure the 5th and final one of this series back here in Toronto. Tomorrow. When they win. This city will erupt with the likes of which have not been seen and heard in almost a quarter of a century. Yep. I’m damn excited. I’m thinkin’ the same can be said to occur nationally next Monday October 19th when we attend Harper’s going away party. I am going to stick my tongue out at Steve, jump up and down and clap my hands like a little child. Oh and do my happy dance. And most likely cry lol.

In other news a lovely ladybug flew in for a brief visit Sunday afternoon…

I’m also on a week off from classes to study for midterms next week. I have four in total. Three written and one oral practical exam where I have to show the examiners all the massage techniques I’ve learned in proper sequence. A little nervous about that. Wish me luck!

Until next time…

Peace, love & light,

Jules

Checking In

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Self-Portrait...Muskoka, Ontario...July 2015

Dear ones,

I have been ridiculously inattentive. Forgive me. It has been over two months since my last post! I sound like I’m  beginning a confession, lol.

How have you been? Please, fill me in, I want to know.

Summer FLEW by didn’t it? I’m hard pressed to remember it all. Best part of it for me was spending two weeks with my daughter at my Mother’s place up north in the land of Muskoka lakes. Lake swimming and ice cream eating. Every. Day. We are so lucky to have had this special time with my Mum. And I needed a break from the big city. Toronto does not present the depth of nature Muskoka offers so willingly and freely…and my soul needs the soothing surround of pure, peaceful nature.

On August 24th I began my courses in Massage Therapy at Sutherland-Chan here in Toronto. We have a healthy class of 37 wonderful, unique individuals all working together towards the same goal (they teach me so much!). We really are lucky to have each other.

It has been an intense period of transition, adjusting to a new full-time study schedule. And it’s truly full on. Both Anatomy and Physiology are dense courses…I can hardly believe I’m learning as much as I am in such a short time…all the bones and their structures from the pelvis to the feet and their muscles & ligaments (excluding the lower leg). I mean, it’s only been 4 weeks! It feels so much longer…in a good way, lol.

The best part of course are the practical classes where we learn massage techniques. Every week, three times a week, I get a massage. How brilliant is that?! We just learned Head/Neck/Shoulders… oh…my…gad it feels amazing!!

I have to say though, I love giving more than receiving. It’s a total workout and thus completely energizing. I love it. I massage with love :).

Regarding my mental health, school is so beneficial. I feel motivated and inspired every day. I have no time to ruminate. Bipolar who? Ha-cha-cha!

So, that’s me. Where I’m at right now.

I love that my 6 year old daughter and I are both going to school at the same time…learning, steady as she goes, new languages both (she French, me Anatomy speak). My husband makes our lunches for us…how sweet is that? How lucky are we :).

I leave you now, time to play a game with the little one.

Thank you for reading and being here.

Peace, love & light,
Julia

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Where Time Machines Cannot Take Us

I introduce my friend, Kusum Dole, and her new blog. Let’s show her some WordPress love :).

This piece really resonates with me presently.
May it also with you.

Peace, love & light,
Julia

Foster Self Awareness

Related: A personal account of my “Experiences of In-Between”

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Where Time Machines Cannot Take Us

Why do we dread starting and ending?

What is between the here and there?

The “in-between” is everywhere: creative or work projects, writing a resume, going out for the evening, quitting smoking…any task whether active or passive.

Each of us reacts to it in our own way: a dead stop, procrastination, hesitation, digging our heels, avoidance or, perhaps, rising to the challenge.

What does in-between feel like?

The in-between is different for each of us who struggles with it: An open field fraught with attacks from the sky. A swamp of sinking despair. An empty eternity. A dense dark forest…suffocating, trapping.

Even though we know that we must go through the in-between, we yearn for that time machine so we don’t have to traverse it. Wanting to be already there.

I used to want this, too. Then I learned…

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Checking in…

I have been the worst blog buddy! I’m so sorry. Classes and work and life have taken my full attention. How are you? What’s new in your life?

A week ago my daughter Lily and I went to Toronto’s Sugar Beach, a really cool man-made  invention. Wind was a bit chilly but the sun was a shining brightly, first beach day of the summer! Lily and her little buddy Olivia hadda grand time, as did my friend Johanna and I. All it needed was a beer and bbq to top it off 😀

My pre-admission Anatomy course finishes a week from Saturday. Gad the time has flown! I’m doing really well, proud of myself…and I’m all a flutter for the full time Massage Therapy course to kick in come the end of August. Imagine…two years from now I’ll be writing my Ontario RMT exam – crazy!

Feeling really odd today…like I’m waiting for something, like I’m on the edge of something amazing happening. Ever have those days? Like…I’m about to come into A LOT of money or something. Hmmmm. Just…strange.

My mental health/mood took a dip there for a couple of weeks, much to my disappointment. Thankfully it’s picked up again. My shrink and I have finally taken me off the anti-depressant that caused me to gain 40lbs – thank god – and have started me on a weight neutral one. Hooray!! AND, it has no sexual side effects. HALLELUJAH.

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View of Lake Ontario from Sugar Beach

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Olivia

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Olivia's beautiful Mum, Johanna

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Lily

Another week and Lily will finish Senior Kindergarten and be free for the summer. How is it I have a child going into grade one? I swear just yesterday I was breastfeeding her.

I hope your week is off to a wonderful start.

Til next time…

Peace, love & light,
Julia